Drunken thoughts of a sunken mind

"why are you so scared?" is what i ask my heart. he says he is confused. (I call my heart a 'he'... he is my man) There is something between him and complications... Some serious issue that they have with each other... for him, a straight line would have taken a lot of lefts, rights and U-turns to become straight... and NOW he is confused... 

I don't understand how i should behaved... because i don't know how someone expect me to... A simple answer to this is: when u don't know how to behave, u behave the way u want to. But it doesn't seem the right thing to do... why?... Now because he is scared... scared of being judged... more scared of being misinterpreted... 

Does it make sense to you if I say... Good friends, best friends or just friends... they keep secrets... they don't become secrets... 

Again, should u worry about being judged by good friends, best friends or just friends? Or rather being misinterpreted by them?

Emotional, philosophical answer is no... u shouldnt worry they are friends, they understand... 

but the actual real answer is yes... coz when words fumble and make the thoughts unclear... they might not understand...

and then things might not be the same anymore... opinions may form... and might 'complicate' things

thats another question i ask... why do u need to not like complications? sometimes... may be sometimes they are good

Now he is scared and he is confused... torn between choices... why cant we just randomly choose from the answer key... and tick A, B, C... 

there are no set rules... new game... new rules... NEW RULES that are changeable at any time...

and now he is confused... coz he might not know how to play the game... And he is scared... not coz he might loose the game... its coz there is neither a clear winner nor a looser... 

 

should u hold onto it or just let it go... like the way u have let others go?